tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9102713970882088286.post1383880303128282501..comments2024-02-24T05:54:55.608-08:00Comments on Who does she BEAD she is?: Satcitananda Sanskrit for Eternal Bliss ConsciousnessMonaRaehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02579612726117732916noreply@blogger.comBlogger3125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9102713970882088286.post-85857478032451997062012-07-18T23:15:56.705-07:002012-07-18T23:15:56.705-07:00Yes that's me. I know that undeserving script ...Yes that's me. I know that undeserving script well. It was implanted at a very very young age by people I looked up to and loved, which made it all the more believable. I use a lot of breath work and small steps to reach the bigger vision.<br />on the time issue. I use the following affirmation.<br />"I have all the time I need to accomplish all things that I need to accomplish today and always"<br />My blog has been sitting in maintenance mode for almost 3 months now. I walked into work and told my boss he needs to pull me off the schedule all but the 3 days he hired me to work or pull me off the schedule all together until Sept. He agreed so I have created that space to allow my self time to be creative.<br />I saw the link you shared on the social media marketing tool and will definitely look into that!<br /><br />You are absolutely right we not only can do it! WE WIll!<br />Thanks for the inspiration!RCnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9102713970882088286.post-73610505153711170372012-07-17T20:22:30.571-07:002012-07-17T20:22:30.571-07:00Dear RC, if you are who I think you are, what I...Dear RC, if you are who I think you are, what I've suspected about you for a while now is totally confirmed. We stand next to each other SO MUCH, it is eerie (even wondered a time or two if you were stalking me, LOL!) <br /><br />Your comment is totally awesome and credible and aligned! For me it was my grandmother who abused and my mother who was nice. I have come to the realization, or rather remembering thanks to your comment, that what I am afraid of is disappointing my parents by not being what their (perceived!) expectations of me are; my second realization is that I am not afraid of failure, but rather of success. You mentioned being "deserving"; all my life my script was that I was not deserving. Sometimes when we are stopped by huge steps, we can proceed in smaller ones. For you it may be creating time to be creative, and being successful at it, defining success in your own terms. For me, it is pretending I have all the time in the world, remembering I am blessed to always have what I need when I need it by the grace of Gaia and God and Buddha, and the spirit of my father; I signed up for $1 for a social media marketing tool, and I'm going to use the hell out of it for the month it cost me that $1. Then I'm going to take Dr. Phil's advice and do more than dream but I will have a planned and measurable goal<br /><br />We can do it friend, yes we can can!Mona Rae Baroodyhttp://monaraebeads.etsy.comnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-9102713970882088286.post-64815229264896541432012-07-17T17:58:37.635-07:002012-07-17T17:58:37.635-07:00Wow Mona this one really touched a deep spot today...Wow Mona this one really touched a deep spot today, one I usually don't dare address. it appears we may very well be standing near the same spot at the fork in the road so to speak. From beginning to end with a few minor twists. <br />The eyes of my father(biological) always seem to be near. <br />Trust and abandonment grandmother was kind, mother was hateful and cruel and failed to protect. @ age 10 found out how badly abuse by cousin can hurt an otherwise beautiful spirit. Path of self destruction age 13-20, most of which were spent in the shadows of the night in our town. The conclusion that maybe they did the best they knew how. But saddened by the fact that total denial and abandoment was the end result. Creativity was my saving grace. Creating beauty was a way of making a somewhat cruel life completely manageable. Getting lost in the proccess of art was and is a wonderful freeing experience.<br />Feeling stuck and somehow hindered has had it's grip on me as of late. Confusion of the necesary steps to break free are with me constantly these days. <br />Does doing what I want and what I crave to do pay the bills. No. The job I have at the moment pays the bills but starves and binds the soul. Could doing what I love pay the bills? Yes <br />My dilema I'm standing on the edge knowing the fear that holds me back is not fear of failure. I Know that failure is a step closer to success. The fear is Self-worth valuing my self enough to allow myself to break free from the mundane. Trust that I am capable of loving myself enough to allow myself to live the life I envision. The fear of Success, The illusion that I will not be able to support my family and create Art. To have the best of both worlds. <br />A reoccuring dream of mine that I free fall off that cliff and am completely emersed in art and blissful. So far I have envisioned myself telling my employer that I can no longer build their dream and ignore the screams of mine. (yes I can feel them my Dreams) screaming at me) o_O I have walked through that door on 4 different occasions with the solid intent of putng in my notice only to be weakened by the percieved need of others.<br /><br />I can totally relate to the queing of the Twilight theme songRCnoreply@blogger.com